I realized something very important this morning – sometimes you just cannot make time to sit on the zafu and spend 5 minutes just breathing. But being the wonderful multi-tasker that I am, I DID realize that if I was in the shower, or addressing envelopes, or making phone calls I can breathe deeply and focus only on what I’m doing. It isn’t exactly zazen, but the point of zazen is to focus on the moment and be within it entirely.
I managed to do that this morning, focusing on my breath while showering. I felt fantastic once I got out, and I got to at least try to focus and still my thoughts. It felt good, and it opens up my day a bit more since I don’t have to keep beating myself up for not being able to physically sit down and breath for 5 minutes. I’m so busy setting things up for the next 6 months that I need the chance to focus my mind and stop the external babbling. This is a HUGE realization and I’m feeling good about being able to try to meditate every day.